I have no mouth but I must scream.

Posted in General, Job hunting, Unemployment with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on October 13, 2016 by MISANTHROPIST

It’s been a long while since I last wrote anything or at least it feels like it. Turbulent times, if you’ve been reading enough you realise that despite my experiences my life in general is a chaotic clusterfuck, I’m still getting it together even now.

To that end I’ve been looking for work, I’ve found the kind of job that’s easy, well paid and I get left alone. It’s temporary with a possibility for expansion of my contracted hours. The hours mean I’ll have a social life and time to myself.

My main concern is getting out of the job centre, it’s still as fucky as ever. Nothing has changed. Upon my arrival she commented on seeing me again and I commented that she’s still having trouble with her computer. I’ll go on to explain how nothing has changed.

Firstly she sends me to agencies, physically when they all tell you to put in an application online. Second was a job that she obviously didn’t read because I don’t speak Mandarin or Cantonese a requirement of the job. I did look this one up just incase she told me she’d sanction me for not applying.

I did look up the word for idiot however. Then another with a huge company that I didn’t even meet the requirements for.

The interview I attended today was stumbled upon by accident while my advisor tried to get her computer working. She made clear on that same meeting her only requirement is to attempt to force me into whatever employment I’m suitable for. If she keeps putting me in for jobs like that I’ll have no problem getting signed in the time before I get a payment.

UC is a mess. I’m only very little money at the moment and I have a month until a first payment and yet she expects me to travel for miles on public transport with next to zero funds. Her only advice is get an advancement, as if I want to owe them money.

On another note I’m kinda glad I’m out of my old job, can’t say I’ve been stressed at all since my employment ended. Only when it stopped did I realise sure I was doing great at my job but everything else kinda went to shit. I feel a bit of guilt over that but all you can do is fix it.

I need to get used to being a person again. If all works out with the job the transition into routine should be easier. I’ve been bored at home. The downside to having lots of time in your hands is you find yourself thinking too much. The upside is that some of that thinking can be productive.

All I’ve been doing is cleaning, laundry, cooking and applying for jobs. Other than that I’ve being playing the mass effect series many years too late which at this point is the normal with media. My social life close to zero, maybe I speak with about three people. Rule is always the with ‘work friends’ there’s only one I bother with.

So you can imagine the tedium by now. Between the job centre and everything else it’s all fun. That’s not to say it’s all bad, at least now things can and will change. By next week I’ll know if I’ve got the job. It’s all to perfect for me but if I can pull it off I’ll sail smoothly for a bit longer while I get everything else in order.

Once all that’s done 2017 should be acceptable. I’ll be able to work out what the hell we’re going to do about the music project, we spent a lot of time formulating a plan. If I think positively for a moment this is only a bump. That last job paid for everything I would need. I took a small amount in savings and stashed it away so I could use it for a future trip.

Realistically all of this hasn’t thrown me that far off course. Nothing I can’t fix in about 2 months. If all else fails I can make my own money, could freelance for my old work. Left on good terms. I had a conversation like this recently with someone important to me.

I’ve been down, only just came out of that feeling. You start to feel kinda useless when you work hardcore Monday to Friday then suddenly you’re doing nothing except attending job centre and getting frustrated as your money runs out. Fun times. Fortunately I just have to be patient.

On another topic entirely I’ve had this blog running for six years now. I think it needs a change. I should go back to writing actual posts rather than the sporadic updates you’ve received.

I’ll have to write again soon,


Facebook’s latest feature.

Posted in General, Social Media, The Internet. with tags , , , on September 17, 2016 by MISANTHROPIST

Remember in school when you were given course work? A few of you reading this would have increased the font size to meet the 4 or 5 page requirement. I came across it a few days ago when someone posted something and it came in a larger font, bold, I believed it was a meme generator job or a new app for Facebook.

This was not the case. Now all your bullshit is displayed in a larger, bolder, font. It took me ten minutes to realise that the smaller your word count the larger the font. Your drama and bullshit is now received in bold type. You may feel as if your opinions hold more weight in a larger font.



Posted in Foods with tags , on September 4, 2016 by MISANTHROPIST

A quick one:

A little while ago I decided to go on a diet. The nature of my work meaning I’m at an office desk every day from 9-7pm. Not great for your fitness or physical health. Ever since I began on this diet I’ve notice that I’ve enjoyed every single meal I’ve eaten. I think it’s due to the better quality/sourced ingredients. I honestly assumed it would all be rabbit food but two months in I’m enjoying my food more than ever. I would complain about the portions but it is a diet and follows the restruant rule: the smaller the portion, the greater the quality.



Posted in General with tags on September 4, 2016 by MISANTHROPIST

I should be posting a lot more now on account of the free time I have. I am not too happy about being stuck at home but in a way I can see how this could be a blessing, I was constantly complaining about my lack of a social life, I’m sure that my next employment will be normal hours unless I opt for night work, even then a social life will be more accessible should I feel the need to socialise.


More aquisitions 

Posted in Technology with tags , , , , on September 4, 2016 by MISANTHROPIST

I invited a friend over the other night for a Thursday night casual. A few drinks and a smoke, catching up etc. While we were talking he informs me that he’s looking to get rid of an iPad and laptop. They’ve been up on eBay for about a week now. Mates rates apply here so I’m getting them both for a massive discount this would have cost me around £900 but I’m getting them both from £300. Nothing wrong with them aside from a little wear on the iPad. 

I got lucky by the sounds of it. I should be expecting them by the 15th of the month. Having them both should make blogging here easier and take the strain off my phone which I’ve been using for everything over the course of the last year.

Hopefully easier access to the Internet will give me something to do, I don’t know about you guys but I’ve never been a fan of surfing the Internet on a tiny screen. It’s a pain in the ass and cannot be good for your eyes.



Posted in General with tags , , , , , on September 4, 2016 by MISANTHROPIST

Lately I’ve been plagued by the little bastards. Every night I patrol my room looking for them, killing them as I see them. Just as I’m about to drift into sleep I hear ‘bzzzzzt.’ The little bastards drive me crazy. Conventional warfare has been unsuccessful so I’m going to start spraying the room an hour before bed. They are starting to disturb my sleep to the point that I hear ‘bzzzzt’ even when they’re not around.



Surprise, surprise.

Posted in Job hunting, Unemployment, Work with tags , , on September 4, 2016 by MISANTHROPIST

Now there are two types of people: some who set a single alarm and wake up and others who set five and only wake up on the fifth. I’m one of the latter people. On this particular morning the fifth alarm sounded and I was fully conscious, preparing for a coffee and first cigarette of the day. The ritual must be completed.
As soon as I get vertical I received a text message from my manager saying that coming in is pointless as I’d have no work to do, the campaign I’m heading up is not running. In my pre-caffeinated haze I took this as being given a day off but as I woke up the language in the message began to concern me.

The use of ‘if the campaign restarts’ and not ‘when.’ If I’ve learned anything in my life it’s not to wait in these situations. So I may as well start firing off my curriculum vitae or I’ll end up something like this:

My CV has a lot of new additions including managerial responsibilities, recruitment and QC among other things. Should make finding work easier and I should be able to demand a higher wage for my work. Honestly at this point I don’t see how I could work for less.