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She comes around again.

Posted in women with tags , , , , , , on May 28, 2017 by MISANTHROPIST

A while back I was writing about the women in my life. I accepted whatever loses occurred as it’s part of meeting people. I’ve played the game enough to know there are always fall outs. It’s part of life and while I may miss them as people I’m not going be upset about it. What I did not expect however was one to come back. 

I say that but I ended the post ‘A minus’ by saying that I’d hear from her again, maybe I partly knew this would happen. I’m guessing it didn’t work out why that guy she was seeing. I’m not really a fan of hot and cold, generally I stay warm. That chemistry I was unsure of is right back, this is why I kick myself for not trusting my gut at times.

We’ve spoken for the last few days and it’s nice to hear from her. She definitely wants something. I know what it is. She’s only half shy about it. I’ve been nice, I haven’t thrown her suddenly reappearance in her face. It is kinda funny to me that now she wants to know. This isn’t the first time with her, she goes away and comes back. 

Always comes back. I had thought last time was the last time. I entertain her because I like her as a person, I mean yeah we could fuck but I don’t have to. She’s good company clothed or not. Just because you can doesn’t mean you should. Men often complain that women don’t make their intentions clear, this is not the case with her.

She ended up asking me to go out, I discovered that we have very similar tastes in food which makes things smoother. One thing I do like about her is she’s not hard to please. We’ll have a nice night whatever we end up doing. I will go out with her as a friend and see what kind of night we have. As I see it there’s a reason she keeps coming back. I see no harm in spending some time with her.

-Misanthropist.

Do you like Pina Coladas?

Posted in Love, The Internet., women with tags , , , , , on January 17, 2017 by MISANTHROPIST

The strangest thing happened to me today, I posted on a popular website to meet new people as I’d been alone lately. A woman answered me from Europe and I replied, 12 hours later she got back to me and told me where she was from. In the same message she asked my name which I provided.

She said she could relate to my post a lot with what had been going on in her life. I felt like I knew her, it felt very familiar. She replies with my full name and I return with my nickname for her. It turns out to be my ex girlfriend who I just broke up with.

We talked a lot after that, I thought she would just stop replying but we talked and had the most meaningful conversation we’ve had in months. I’ve felt nothing but either determined, pissed off or caffeinated for a while now so you can imagine. Suddenly emotions.

We reconciled and she seems to have grown since we have been away. We spoke the whole evening and we were honest with one another, I feel like this she hasn’t let me in like this in a while. A few things occurred to me during the conversation that may be important. 

If we hadn’t spoken today we may not have spoken for months or ever. She said she almost deleted it because she was tired but she finished it before bed. Today she told me she loved me and when she found out other women were interested she opened up and said she was afraid of losing me. 

She was afraid that by the time she is okay it will be too late. I’ll be gone and she isn’t half wrong. I could have easily done so if I had to. It’s been a fucking weird day for me. We’re not back together but this is a start. She needs to learn to let me in, I know it’s not on purpose.

She said that people haven’t been the best to her when she opened up in the past. I promptly reminded her that I’m not people. I pointed out how she spoke about loving me, fell asleep with me and spoke about us having a life together but she hasn’t let me in. Paradox much?

She seemed to understand this logic. Again a step forward. She’s changed a little and for the better but she’s still herself. I do see through her, I just wish she would tell me rather than let me read her. I’m willing to be patient and assured her that I’m not going to disappear on her. She misses me and loves me, I guess that’s a start.

She finally dropped the bullshit and pulled back when she realised I could see someone else. Why should it have taken so much for her to do this. I had to reassure her that of all people I will accept her for who she is and how she feels. Does she not think that’s important to me?

I have to get the fucking difficult ones… despite being difficult she’s a sweet woman. Warm, caring in her own way. I guess we’ll see where it goes. This lifts a weight off me, I’ll admit.

I still don’t like pina coladas though…

-Misanthropist.

Into the fire.

Posted in Job hunting, Legal, Unemployment, Work with tags , , , , , , on February 14, 2016 by MISANTHROPIST

  
I hate it when things change suddenly but sometimes being thrown in the deep end is for the best. I’m not really sure how it happened but my stint at the wall was cut short. I got a free pair of boots out of it so I can’t complain, I had started to enjoy how quiet it was out there. 

I started getting bombarded by interviews and when I sent my CV and custom cover letter as I usually did. I wasn’t complaining as the interviews saved me from getting up at 5.30am. I got a few interviews.

 One for a store that I didn’t want to work for anyway, the other was my current job. Unfortunately I couldn’t attend the hospital porter position and any after that I didn’t bother. I got a call back the same day and started on Tuesday, last week. 

It’s an interesting job. I’m learning a lot about the law. I can’t really go into the specifics. It’s well paid. Some consider it immoral but at the end of the day it helps some people. I’ve learned some things, investigative skills. How to take business from other groups. It’s interesting but definitely not glamorous.

At this point the world is full of barriers and the scales are not exactly even. If I’m not prepared to involve myself in the morally ambiguous then I’m only putting myself at a disadvantage. It helps that I know I’m helping and I’ll be paid.

Anyway enough about my job, you’ll hear pieces most likely but I’m just happy I finally have one, I don’t come and want to hit the bed right away. I can focus on building a life now. I guess being thrown in the fire didn’t turn out too bad.

I hate that two week rule, it has me waiting for a while until I’m paid but other than that things are alright. That Finnish girl is lovely too. Maybe things are finally levelling out, I’m definitely happier. The freedom at work is great too. 

I hadn’t updated anything in here for a while. I thought it was about time, now I have time. I feel like I’m doing rather well for myself finally. I will be when payday rolls around.

-Misanthropist.