Now you may be reading that title and the next few lines and begin wondering to yourself. What the fuck?
The answer is that this isn’t for you. You may read it, you may have an opinion or a question. Please don’t ask it.
I’d appreciate that much. People are selfish and only care for themselves I think you might have a little misanthropic streak in you yet babe. People are basically 1o pounds of shit in a 20 pound bag. I’m sorry you learned that the hard way and in the harshest way possible from those who were supposed to be there for you. Fuck them I’m always here.
Now for the point of this post, I have the most amazing woman in my life right now and this morning I found myself really bothered about something. For unspecified reason ( That means reasons unspecified to you) I found her apologising not only for things she hadn’t done and had no control over but also simply for existing. Now I don’t know how long it’ll be before she reads this but this one is for you angel.
Don’t ever apologise for existing, in this world full of shit and scum you’re the anti-thesis of everything I hate so much. You make waking up in the morning worth while and you’re the last thing I see before we go to sleep. I love that. You really are a million times better than anyone else you’ll ever meet including me. I wish I had it in me to be such a good person. You’re a diamond and you always have been. Babe, fuck em’ if they can’t see that you’re a fucking amazing person and you’ve got twice the brain they ever had then more fool them. Don’t you ever apologise for being better than they are. They’re lucky you even acknowledge them at all, in that way you’re a better person.
You’ve never been a burden, you shouldn’t ever apologise for anything especially not to them. They don’t and have never deserved the acknowledgement. You are who you are because of you, nobody influenced you, you don’t do it out of reward or praise. You’re a rare thing, a genuinely good person. I’m always going to be here, if you aren’t certain of anything you can be certain of me. I know you’re a big girl but i’m always going to take care of you and I won’t ever abandon you. You mean the fucking world to me and there will never be another you. You’re good enough for me, fucking christ be damned you’re better. You make me proud, I’m lucky to have met you, even luckier to have you. You’re fucking perfect so believe it. I’ll be damned if some piss poor excuse for a person is going to tell you otherwise. You might feel some days that your very existence is a curse, for me it’s a blessing and I can only thank you for it. You make my life fucking amazing and I love you for it. Do me one big favour don’t ever fucking change for anyone, not even me. I love you for who you are and everything you are even the things you might hate. All of it makes you, you and makes me love you. Also I can’t wait to meet that asshole, the shit will indeed hit the fan. I smell an ABH charge coming my way but it’ll be soooooo worth it. Babe I’ll always be everything you need and you know that no matter what is happening I’ve always got time for you.
Side note: If you’re reading this you need to sleep. You crazy, beautiful woman. I need you around for a very long time. Remember the discussion you’re not allowed to die before me okay. I’m holding you to that.
Some days we all feel like crying, I mean it is easier for me. I’d be a fucking liar if I told you otherwise but I have hate, I fucking hate people, I have contempt for them among many other things. That hatred and contempt helps me get over it. Change cry to kill with blunt object and we’re good to go.
I know it’s different for you but fuck them, they don’t deserve such an amazing daughter. They’ll never know how lucky they are. You’re fucking amazing and you have nothing to apologise for. At all. So don’t you ever apologise for existing and secondly don’t you ever fucking change because I don’t ever want anyone else.
Now if you’ve read this and you are thinking what the fuck? Hold that thought.
I know I’m early and all but happy valentines angel and fuck them they don’t even deserve to know you. I love you and sleep well.
If you’re reading and thinking ‘This guy’ then fuck you. This isn’t for you and nobody asked for your input especially not me.
How do you say? GTFO.