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Interesting Developments…

Posted in America, England, Job hunting, Love, Misanthropy, Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on January 25, 2012 by MISANTHROPIST

Or as somebody very dear to me puts it:
“welcome to the world.”

I’m back in England and nowhere near happier for it. I hit british soil and at the same time the realization hits me. I’m back to the reality of the dingey shit hole I happen to call home, don’t get me wrong it’s nice to see family and all but recently being “reminded” I need to get a job hasn’t really helped my mood. I already know I need a damn job but I’m settling back in.

The people I call my friends are as boring as ever, they’re drinking a little more now. Maybe the depression is setting into all of us, maybe I was just an early bloomer. I don’t really feel at home to be honest. It’s nice to see family and friends but it’s just not what I used to anymore. I can’t sit at home because It’s weird being alone now and I don’t have my woman to keep me company. I find myself going crazy at home.

Some of my misanthropy disappeared it seems as I find myself seeking comfort from others to deal with the shock of settling back in. All this to no avail of course. As I said my friends are uninteresting and want to drink to excess, something I’ve grown tired of. I don’t enjoy alcohol as much nowadays.
I’m still smoking, got to quit that.

I finally got a phone, not that I’ll have many people I want to talk or give out my number too.
I finally have a cell, what opportunities will this bring me?
I get the feeling it’ll be a viewing glass for drama and a seldom used messenger device. One good thing is it has the internet. I’d like and iPhone but what is the point?

I think I’m going to take my job hunt more seriously, I think I’ll look for something part-time or agency related so I can get in and out of jobs when it fits my transatlantic schedule. For the most part I’m quite pissed off but I need money, I have objectives and I need to get fit and stay that way.

London is looking bleaker than ever, I think it has just hit me how depressing this place is, I could do with some of that clonazepam. It is infinitely dreary and depressing here. I hate it more than ever and I miss america more than ever. I can’t get used to living here anymore. The whole experience of settling into London life is getting me in a rut.

Things in England are as shitty as ever, it feels like I’ve changed but this place has gotten worse, is there any feeling worse than feeling alien in your own country. Feels like I’m back in the stone age. It sucks.

Well at least I’ll have plenty to post about,
Misanthropist.

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Reddit and a short personal history lesson.

Posted in Idiotic groups/people, Misanthropy, People, The Internet. with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on January 13, 2012 by MISANTHROPIST

The first time I was on the Internet I joined two communities, one was a music discussion board and the other was a gaming board. I frequented the gaming board and was not well accepted as I had just discovered alcohol and began partying. When I got back from parties I would surf this website fairly drunk. I made friends, some life long friends but I ran afoul of moderators and higher ranking members of certain cliques. I was a pain in the ass, they attempted to bully me in their own way

I replied to them with arguments, threats and offensive macro images mainly for revenge and laughs. Reminding myself of users of a certain site. I had made friends and because of that I was let into a whole 2 Page thread of mods raging about me. It seems I was a troll before it was cool. After getting banned and then permanently banned I made more accounts and kept coming back. I wasn’t accepted by the community but I made a few good friends.

Then the other board was more accepting, at first my comments were lost in a flurry of other posts. I had to take my time to get to know these people, their site was more chaotic. They had their own in jokes and it was an amusing and fun place ran by a mr.zilla who commented but kept rather neutral in affairs. I also joined its brother board. They were a split from and older and much larger commercial music site. This isn’t the board you might be thinking of but it was similar in some ways.

The site was a yuku and it ran with its own jokes, slandering, discussions, and all manner of threads with lots of music related viewer reviews. You get the picture, the place was well habited. There’d be some rivalry between the two brother sites but it was all in all awesome. I made friends and enemies again but was accepted and found to be rather amusing. Eventually both sites wilted and died. This was over the course of maybe three years.

Later on I went to other site but none with forums. I came across reddit. Quite late actually. When I finally went on it I thought, wow it’s like the fucking matrix. It may actually be awesome. Mr.Fox had actually recommended it to me when we talked at anywhere between 3pm-5am between his trips to china and return to Los Angeles. He is one of the more interesting writers on the Internet.

(This a short story of how my social life went down the drain, it wasn’t a big thing when it happened, now I suddenly seem to be reconnected. I made a regretful decision to be in contact with all of them. Don’t get me wrong I’d like to see them but not in a local park or on a street or in a dive pub in London. It seems crazy to me how these days I find the majority of my entertainment at home or on the Internet. I used to go out a lot the suddenly everything changed. This issue here isn’t because they got jobs and commitments, they’d had those before and we still managed. But everyone split into their groups and we seemed to talk less and less. Our communication is moderate. Most of them are likable and some were true friends. We went around everywhere doing everything, we had some amazing parties. Some of them hate each other now, some have disappeared, other have moved, some cannot be bothered and others just have their separate faction. Naturally I am my own faction.)

Rage Comics later encouraged me to go to the site and read through it.
When I read through it I was impressed and didn’t know how endless it truly was. The content is great. I enjoyed that part. The conversations and debates looked fun. There were endless interesting sub-reddits from medicine to abandoned places. There was pretty much something for everyone and the users seemed okay and informed. After getting heavily into reddit I joined, I read topics and rated some harmlessly enough. I posted a few comments, karma for being funny. Here is where I start to see the darker side of reddit. I should have taken the blue pill.

I decided to post a few things, most of it was ignored or rarely commented on. I had some legitimate debates and discussions I wanted to have about atheism, science and philosophy but it was all ignored. I was not really discouraged because I know it happens when you are new. First I was attacked for being new, no problems just a few idiots. It was pretty funny actually. Then I notice other people’s decent contributions were also being ignored so I went and browsed some rage comics, science articles and abandoned places. As my explorations extended I found spacedicks accidentally,I really wish I had taken that blue pill.

I noticed that people got up voted to the front page for animal pictures and some funny stuff which was pretty decent. I saw the coffee shop activists of reddit for what they were. I saw atheists acting as bad as those denounced. Bravely calling out religious family members for approval and karma. It was pretty sick. I am not a believer in the divine but these guys give atheists a bad name and they ensure I’d never identify with them. They pick on unsuspecting and stupid people. They are sad, strange little people. Certain people know how to manipulate en masse to gather karma. Crooked farmers picking a strange fruit.

The worst thing about the karma whoring is that people would make up sob stories in order to gain karma using a ton of heart-felt bullshit. People were exposed for doing this. I watched countless crap spewed forth from the redditors, to be fair it is more of a diamonds in shit situation. All in all reddit has made me even more misanthropic than before. People are greedy even if it’s just for up votes. It’s like the next evolution of the attention whore.
The atheists can’t debate shit, they would not consider that they might be wrong when in pure science you cannot prove their hypothesis that there is no god without definitive proof. neither atheist nor theist can say they are right without reasonable doubt.

Then we have the hipsters, they hurt my skull with all their bullshit. Let’s act like we are cultured and drink crappy beard to validate that!
They disrespect anyone who isn’t into their crap and remind me of the Manson family if they had a strange sense of style. Hipsters annoy me for many reasons. I think the last straw for me was the day I found out about their slang and they attempted to insult me during an enquiry about seapunks so I retaliated and they ended up leaving me alone in thread. After that I think I know it means to truly hate hipsters. This hipster bullshit goes on all the time.

Reddit in itself is a great site. The people make it bad. It can be entertaining but it was killed for me when people started bringing their beliefs and ideologies into things. After that reddit became even more of a circle-jerk then it already was. They have a board called circle-jerk but after spacedicks I refuse to click on it. All the worst of humanity can be found on reddit, especially those that make you question whether the majority of people are really that simple. I look through reddit for fun, latest developments, some interests but I rarely participate anymore because it just isn’t worth the time it takes to post. If I want to know the opinions of others I can read their comments.

Reddits in jokes and memes are mostly stolen from 4chan. I enjoyed encyclopedia dramaticas article about reddit. I find it quite accurate. When I look at reddit I see a larger and sanitized 4chan. I refuse to upvote anyone or give them any karma because why the fuck do they need it? Why do they deserve it?
It’s full of many a manchild and karmawhore. I check it and every time my distaste for it grows greater than ever before. There is no real sense of community. It’s like living in the city!

People just trying too hard for karma. With dumb in jokes, pissing contests, fake stories and the occasional decent article or thread. Everything is a repost. In my personal opinion less than a quarter of the sub reddits I have seen are informative or entertaining. The rest is like a buffer.

Reddit has been annoying me lately.
Misanthropist.

Our wonderful day.

Posted in Medical with tags , , , , , , , , , on January 12, 2012 by MISANTHROPIST

I am fast becoming familiar with the American medical system. I had an instance of hemoptysis and began to worry due to being a smoker, it turned out to be nothing but it’s good to know that I’m okay. This isn’t about me, it’s about her.

My girlfriend has been having nausea for as long as I can remember, after a few years and some reasonable tests I always put it down to motion sickness. Recently she had a tonsil and adenoidectomy, which is always fun, I made sure I was there during the surgery and asking all the right questions. I was also there to get her through her first experience of a serious narcotic painkiller which was highly amusing.

After the surgery she had worse nausea and the painkiller caused all manner of constipation which was less fun. She never seemed to completely recover from the after effects of post surgical medication. Yesterday her nausea got worse than before so we took her in. After the doctor confirmed what we already knew she was sent for full blood work and an ultrasound which, as of yet, turned up nothing. Which is when she was prescribed the anti-histamine Promethazine.

Promethazine was used to treat nausea that I believe may have been related to her motion sickness. After all was done we went to eat, then I went to bed due to the fact I had been up for about 28 hours.

Later on I wake up with my girlfriend freaking out and her family trying to help. Turns out she took the Promethazine and was one of many people who have an allergic reaction. She experienced tremors, mild anaphylaxis and a panic attack. So we went back to the hospital for the second time in one day. She had a heart rate of 157 among other things. We had her admitted and she was in pretty bad shape. They gave her a flush and then some Lorazepam to calm her ass down.

Eventually after she was stabilized we took her home, I had to help her out because the lorazepam relaxed her muscles to a point where walking more than five steps was an impossibility. Once we got her in and laying down myself and her mother took shifts watching her for respiratory depression. This is my shift. She is totally fine now. Sleeping like a person on lorazepam.

I wasn’t worried, I mean, it was pretty obvious what had happened to her. We got her in and now she is fine. She’s also got a few days off which is always fun. She seems to enjoy lorazepam a little too much though. It’s pretty funny listening to her talk. Her attempts to bitch about her aunt went something like this:

‘Yeah well she’s a….person’

I think she meant Bitch. I wish I had a camera, I really do. I’m going for a cigarette now, it’s damn cold. Also, fuck you Midwest. You promised me the worst winter in 100 years.

Anyway as you can gather, my day has been fun, fun, fun.
Misanthropist.

This isn’t a new year’s post, this is just a tribute.

Posted in Uncategorized on January 5, 2012 by MISANTHROPIST

Let me level with you here, I am pretty wasted. I was having a private celebration or rather a continuation of the new year’s celebrations. I am celebrating for another reason, I seem to suddenly semi-popular with a very marginal audience. I received a summary email telling me my stats from this year. I really shouldn’t have another but I probably will. We have had 7,200 viewers in our first year. Thanks to all.

This year we seem to have had interest from every major continent, how, I have no idea. It seems people are a big problem everywhere.

For some reason that stumble upon post is the most popular on my blog. That kind of annoys me. If I’m wrong challenge me. I am up for debate.

Stave at Entropia has provided a Lot of traffic. I read up on Entropia Universe. Thanks for linking me, maybe some people there enjoy my writings.

Then we have to give thanks to the author of the blog misanthropy today for inspiring me and providing me with other traffic. You guys came second.

Then we have yahoo at third, I’m wonder why that is but can’t be bothered to investigate.

Then we have WordPress. I do not know how this happened, I wonder if my writing is somewhat popular.

apparently I have visitors of mostly American, Canadian and British origins. This is one of few things that doesn’t surprise me. I have a few decent commenters. This blog has come a long way in the short time it has been operational. It still annoys the crap out of me that the stumble upon post is the most viewed.

Anyways, it’s been a good year, thanks to all of my readers. I’d like to see some changes in 2012.
Misanthropist.

Happy new year.

Posted in Uncategorized on January 2, 2012 by MISANTHROPIST

New years post coming soon…